I’m hard to reach

Mentally

&

Physically

20 messages unread...

It hardly matters to me

It’s not that I don’t care

Because I do

I care about all of you

If it is urgent then you can call

I will pick up.

But to respond to a text is something

I’m just not great at

Don’t demand my attention 

All day everyday

You won’t get it

& I will only show

The true side of my life

To my therapist

Between teary eyes

And ugly sounds

While I sob

Struggling to get my words out

Because I used to be lucky

But now all the luck has been

Used up 

And I’m stuck here

Floating

But not a nice kind

Sort of in and out

Of sleep 

Looking for inner peace

Please

Don’t distract me on this

Solo journey