I’m sorry that I don’t remember the last goodbye

Or hello 

Or I love you

I’m sorry I wasn’t ready to forgive you

Before you died

I’m sorry that we didn’t have much time

Together

Only loose memories 

And photographs

When I looked through your photo album

And found a cigarette butt

And I laughed between tears and looked up

And laughed with you

Because I know you would be laughing too.

⁃        I don’t always cry when I think of you mum x