I don’t give a shit anymore

My heart hurts

My brain hurts

My gut hurts

I clean when I'm stressed

So I've been cleaning all week

My home is spotless

I seem to need to remind myself to breathe

Anxiety at it's highest

Paranoia

Do they hate me?

Self destruction

My enemy

All the tension built up to one day

All the waiting

All the waiting

all the waiting

2 hours

This week of anxiety led up to a day of waiting and just 2 hours

He was gone much much quicker than he came

but

he will be gone much longer than the time I spent

Sitting, Waiting for him that cold and rainy day